｛ 隨．心．想 ｝™

最近一件一件惱人的事情逐漸落幕，這陣子謝謝朋友們的幫忙與傾聽，歸於平靜，是遲早的事。

無意間想起一部電影，片名叫做The Holiday (戀愛沒有假期)，其中一段對白我很喜歡：
"It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends. You still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door.
不管你換幾次髮型或是去健身，還是和你的姊妹淘喝著白葡萄酒，每日每夜你仍會回想著每個細節，想著自己到底哪裡作錯了，還是誤解了；然後捫心自問以前短暫的時光怎會如此開心。有時你甚至會說服自己，他會想清楚再回來的。

And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new, and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.
經歷這一切以後，你會重新展開新的旅程、你會再遇到一個值得付出的人、你的人生會重新完整。而不愉快的事情，那些年浪費的人生，會逐漸煙消雲散。"

由於某些事而感到身心俱疲、感到沮喪不已，
偶然會想起這段女主角對男主角說的對話。

在我們人生低潮時，腦海總會浮現出許多問號，
納悶事情的演變怎會如此不堪、回想著過去的點點滴滴而淚流滿面；
但，正因為曾令我們心碎的片段，才讓我們懂得振作，並重新開始新的人生。

有一天，這些都會是過眼雲煙，我們所擁有的是跌倒後再站起來的自信。

我現在正處於哪個階段呢？

或許不重要，我知道不久後會笑著回望過去。